depressed

horhzzz ... my mother wake me up early in the morning at 7 o'clock ... because we going to " jiu wang yeah " ... felt very tired because i slept at 4 o'clock last night ... after reach there ... all of us started to praying ... when going to outside is kinda hot and the sun was strong ... i want to be whitening my skin but the sun ... haixxx ... after that we went to ate " dim sum " ... i just ate a bit only ... because i have no appetize ... then left quite a lot ... but finally my brother and sister finished it ... once i reach home then i get to online ... very stress and doing nothing in home ... started from yesterday night ... i feel so depress ... my gosh ! sometimes i feel i'm tough enough but actually i'm not that tough ... i really feel no an assist when i'm facing problems ... so i always telling myself must be tough and do not need any help from other ... i do not want anyone share my sadness thing ... cuz is time for me to be independent and do not need request anyone to help me anymore ... i always telling myself that i able to solve it ... but actually i'm not able to solve it ... what to do in next ? i really don't know ... i have no aim at all for now ... lost my confident and direction ...  i think i able to solve it as well ... wong san san , gambateh ! nothing is impossible ... its time to be not that poor ... should be display virgo ...