what kind of life ?

am i really stubborn ? i think i knew the answer ... that's yes ... i always being the stubborn way whatever i did if i want it to be ... but at the end only i realized why am i so stubborn and i will trying to give ways ... maybe this is one of my personality but i knew is not a good ... i'm not able to take it out as well ... because i'm the only one who loves to win everytime ... i scare to be loser actually ... feeling complicated now ... did i have to change out for this bad attitude ? i think so ... but how ? this is the problem ... i think time is the way can change me as well ... feeling so complicated ... so out of a sudden ... a lot of things pop-ing out ... i'm quite poor actually ... i'm not able to solve all these stuff at the same time ... i always telling people that i'm tough enough but i'm not actually ... i admit i'm a person who like to escape from the suffered ... i dun know what kind of person am i in others people mind ... maybe i'm a bored person ... or even i also dun really understand myself ? no comment at all ... lost myself ... lost the way ... wat can i do in next ? no idea ...