complicated mood

actually i planned to wake up at 10.30am but i still felt so tired ... after that i wake up at 11am ... haha ... after wake up have to do assignment but suddenly i told my mother have to do facial later ... so she asked me to do now ... my gosh ! rush rush ... i take 10 mins to eat my breakfast ... when i reach there i wait for 20 mins ... quite long man ... wasting my time ... but the doctor only take half an hour to finish the facial ... i tot they gonna take abt 2 hours but the nurse "BOMB" me ... she said "you tot u go to beauty parlor to do ur facial?" that time i'm really got shocked ... since my sis told me last time she took 2 hours ... then i just walk out from the room silenctly ... suddenly BOMB me ... swt ! after that i accompany my mother and aunt to buy stuff ... about 3 only reach home ... wasting my time again ... zzz ... after that i planning to do assignment but i did not the details so i go for singing but sing alone at home ... suddenly fely the song of "angels cry" and "already gone" is quite a touch song ... after listening to those song ... my mood slowly become depress ... zzz ...

J card member sales

today i woke up at 8am ... suppose i have to wake up at 7 but i dun really aware of the alarm that i had save ... maybe i'm still dreaming so i'm not aware of that ... about 8 only my sis wake me up ... hu hu ... very rush ... cuz we planned to 8.15 go out to my aunt house ... but about 8.40am only i gao tim ... haha ... mo jie ! after that we going to have breakfast ... eat dim sum but that restaurant not very tasty ... after that we going to aeon lurhxxx ... happy ! a lot of things happen recently , luckily go shopping today ... it might reduce my stress ... walk whole day but only bought one dress ... swt ! i love a pair of shoe very much ... but no more stock ... left the display one ... and it's quite dirty ... so i dun buy it ... really miss the shoe now ... zzz ... i eat quite a lot today ... take my breakfast ... then still go for donut ... after that still eay sakae sushi ... yummy yummy ! cuz we eat a lot of sushi ... then still order the kimchi soup but not so tasty ... cuz it's quite salty ... the taste feel a bit disgusting ... my gosh ! we went to a lot of watch shops ... i want to buy TITUS but i dun know which one is nice ... after that they suggested i to buy swatch better since i planning to buy the normal type but not the steel type ... so i have to do survey once again ... haixxx ... after that we just went back home ... my mother very geng ... she went to midnight market with my another aunt take around half day ... dun know wat she doing there ... when i and sis reach home only she reach home at night ... after that i just playing online and do friend's assignment ... not really sure i'm doing correctly or not ... got a bit scare i will do wrong for him ... swt !

what kind of life ?

am i really stubborn ? i think i knew the answer ... that's yes ... i always being the stubborn way whatever i did if i want it to be ... but at the end only i realized why am i so stubborn and i will trying to give ways ... maybe this is one of my personality but i knew is not a good ... i'm not able to take it out as well ... because i'm the only one who loves to win everytime ... i scare to be loser actually ... feeling complicated now ... did i have to change out for this bad attitude ? i think so ... but how ? this is the problem ... i think time is the way can change me as well ... feeling so complicated ... so out of a sudden ... a lot of things pop-ing out ... i'm quite poor actually ... i'm not able to solve all these stuff at the same time ... i always telling people that i'm tough enough but i'm not actually ... i admit i'm a person who like to escape from the suffered ... i dun know what kind of person am i in others people mind ... maybe i'm a bored person ... or even i also dun really understand myself ? no comment at all ... lost myself ... lost the way ... wat can i do in next ? no idea ...

life

our life are full of expectation and realistic.
we are the only one who able to change the decision by making the miracle.
being a human being thats did not have a great power and confident ...
is better don't give a high expectation ...
otherwise u will fall down with miserable ...
between ...
we have to choose of reality with everything ...
because the society is damn reality ...

i hate love

Claude Kelly - I Hate Love

I hate the mornings 我讨厌这些清晨


Cause I know what they bring 我知道它们带来了什么

You get up and take a shower in no time, your leaving 你很快起床，洗澡，离开我

And it sounds so selfish 听起来很自私

But i can't help but think 但是我除了想又能怎么样呢

That if you knew how much i needed you 你如果知道我多么需要你

You'd stay cause 你会留下，因为



I hate goodbyes 我讨厌再见

I hate these tears in my eyes 我讨厌我眼中的泪水

I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime 我讨厌我自己每一次感觉你的方式

I've had enough 我受够了

I'm sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night 我已经厌倦了去期待他每天24小时在我身边

its way too much 太难以承受

I hate love yeahhyeahhh 我讨厌爱情

I hate love yeahh woooo 我讨厌爱情



I hate your phone calls 我讨厌你的来电

In the middle of the day 在每一天里

Cause you do is remind that my baby is so far away 因为你做的让我才意识到 我的宝贝已经离我远去

It drives me crazy 这就快要让我疯掉

Cause i need you with me 因为我需要你在我身边

I know its time for you to understand what i say that 我知道现在你应该理解我说的每一句话：



I hate goodbyes 我讨厌再见

I hate these tears in my eyes 我讨厌我眼中的泪水

I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime 我讨厌我自己每一次感觉你的方式

I've had enough 我受够了

I'm sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night 我已经厌倦了去期待他每天24小时在我身边

its way too much 太难以承受

I hate love 我讨厌爱情





I don't want to feel this alone (I can't help it) 我不想孤身一人去感受了（我情不自禁）

Everytime you walked out that door 每次你走出房门

I start missing you (I can't help it no) 我开始想念你（不，我情不自禁）

Wish I didn't need you this much (I can't help it) 如果我不这么需要你该多好（我情不自禁）

But i love how it feels when we touch 但是我爱上我们肌肤相亲的感觉



I hate goodbyes 我讨厌再见

I hate these tears in my eyes 我讨厌我眼中的泪水

I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime 我讨厌我自己每一次感觉你的方式

I've had enough 我受够了

I'm sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night 我已经厌倦了去期待他每天24小时在我身边





I hate goodbyes 我讨厌再见

I hate these tears in my eyes 我讨厌我眼中的泪水

I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime 我讨厌我自己每一次感觉你的方式

I've had enough 我受够了

I'm sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night 我已经厌倦了去期待他每天24小时在我身边



I hate love 我讨厌爱情

I hate love 我讨厌爱情

I hate love 我讨厌爱情

you,
the person who able to affected me.

you ,

the person who bring me a stronger power.

you,

the person who can take me to wonderland.

you,

the person who might save me out of trouble.

you,

the person who cause me feel the sense of security.

a tired day ...

about 7 o'clock i have already woke up today ... because i got class at 8 o'clock ... the teacher don't allowed anyone of us late for 15 minutes ... but we were almost late for 10 to 14 minutes ... haha ... luckily we able to managed ourselves on time ... i didn't do the exercises as well so i'm not listening to teacher for the class ... i also dun know wat am i doing at the same time ... after the class ... i keep practicing my presentation because after the class would be english class ... i able to memorizes what i have to present ... when my turn to present ... i almost forgot what points i have to present ... fortunately i able to manage the problems ... MY LOVELY TEACHER ! I DIDN'T DISAPPOINTED YOU ... I MANAGE THE NERVOUS AS WELL ... YEAH ! after the english class finish then i also back to my room and keep all my stuff prepared for next class ... after i kept all my stuff but still left half an hour and i felt so boring ... then i took out the contact lens and use it ... PUI YEE ! I WANNA TO INFORM YOU THAT I ONLY USE FOR HALF AN HOUR TO WEAR THE CON ... HAHAHA ... FASTER CONGRAT TO ME ... but after i wear the contact lens ... my tears keep running downfrom my eyes ... it was pain after i wear ... MY GOSH ! on the way going to class my tears keep running down from my eyes ... luckily reach the class then the tears was stopped ... i keep pulled down my face from facing public because i looks like just stopped from crying ... sob ... the class is end up about 2.30pm ... after that i staright away back from kl to klang because i no need to wait fro my brother and back together as well ... so i reached klang quite early for today ... after my mother fetch me at klang station ... we went to for fruits and i keep running here and there ... like a kids ... haha ... after went back home just keep playing online until now and going to sleep soon ... quite tired for today ... nitezzz ... tatazzz ...

* forgotten * all the best for my lovely teacher because he is going for his exam started from next week since he is doing really hard as well ... GAMBATEH ~~

depressed

horhzzz ... my mother wake me up early in the morning at 7 o'clock ... because we going to " jiu wang yeah " ... felt very tired because i slept at 4 o'clock last night ... after reach there ... all of us started to praying ... when going to outside is kinda hot and the sun was strong ... i want to be whitening my skin but the sun ... haixxx ... after that we went to ate " dim sum " ... i just ate a bit only ... because i have no appetize ... then left quite a lot ... but finally my brother and sister finished it ... once i reach home then i get to online ... very stress and doing nothing in home ... started from yesterday night ... i feel so depress ... my gosh ! sometimes i feel i'm tough enough but actually i'm not that tough ... i really feel no an assist when i'm facing problems ... so i always telling myself must be tough and do not need any help from other ... i do not want anyone share my sadness thing ... cuz is time for me to be independent and do not need request anyone to help me anymore ... i always telling myself that i able to solve it ... but actually i'm not able to solve it ... what to do in next ? i really don't know ... i have no aim at all for now ... lost my confident and direction ...  i think i able to solve it as well ... wong san san , gambateh ! nothing is impossible ... its time to be not that poor ... should be display virgo ...

stress

after i woke up then i take my lunch because i woke up at noon ... haha ... after that i went for saloon and steam my hair ... waiting for the hair stylist to cut off my hair ... he was very busy ... so i wait for him for quite long ... sweat ! my hair was cut ... front is quite short ... lookd a bit " gong " ... haha ... after have go for birthday celebration ... but i was late ... most of them waiting for me around half an hour like that ... my gosh ! i'm so sorry to them ... because they were felt hungry ... after we went to " yuan steamboat " quite a lot of people ... zzz ... but we only waited for a short while ... after that we able to enjoy my dinner ... i felt full but i dun think i take quite a lot ... after we ate the dinner ... we played captured ... even they wanna back already but we still don't bother ... haha ... we just continue our captured ...

after cut off my hair ...

me and xiao ying

snooker ... XD

i and yu ling

after that ... we went to the snooker ... cuz suddenly i feel like wanna to played snooker ... but i only plat twice ... because i don't know to play ... and i don't know to take the stick to play ... cuz its heavy ... my gosh ! feel so uncomfortable when taking that thingy ... haha ... after that we went to celebration and play poker ... around 1 something then i started to feel tired ... then they also fetch me and xiao ying back home ... after i reach home then i straight to online until 3 something ... feel so moody because someone said i looks " very chan " my gosh ! i feel very stress on this problem ... because i don't know how to make it up ... sob ... anyone able to help me ?

bored rebellion

i woke up at 6.45 o'clock today because i have class at 8 o'clock ... so tired ... since i slept 3 o'clock yesterday night ... i able to sleep for few hours only ... i thought i will fishing in class ... luckily i didn't ... cause in tutorial class and lecture also keep coy notes ... especially the lecture ... the teacher teached super fast ... don't know what she rush for ... sweat ! while i'm copying then i didn't listening to teacher since i can't concentrat two things in the same time ... haha ... wat is this call as ? haixxx ... slow react some more cant do two things at the same time ... i also don't know what to say for myself ... just felt disappointed only ... after my class then i went back to hostel and keep all my stuff and waiting for my brother and back along ... around 5.30 we reacher klang but waiting for half an hour only can back home ... zzz ... at the same time my laptop was so heavy ... sweat again ! around 6 something we reacher home ... after having my dinner then i went to baker cottage and bought birthday cake ... because we planning to celebrate birthday at yuan restaurant tomorrow ... thirsting for tomorrow ... because can eat buffet ... haha ... after that i watch rebellion ... this movie is okay ... but not that interesting ... because keep " lam yau" ... the sounds was so shocked ... and felt very cool at the same time ... because only a few people watching that movie and the air cond was facing me ... omg ! i went to number 1 cinema room ... they told me this room got " special human being " and beside of me has no people sitting ... and they trying to scare me ... at first i keep worrying ... but since the movie sometimes quite boring then i also felt bored and didn't notice that " special human being " will do anything to me ... haha ... after movie then i went back home but its around 2 o'colck ... then i planning to online for a while ... but i can't control myself from online ... i played webcam with pui yee ... she is so funny ... keep saying wanna sleep but she keep talking ... so she said a lot of time she wanna go to sleep d ... zzz ... before she sleep and she giving a good night kiss ... she asked me to give her but i feel so pai seh ... but at the end i also giving her ... she said she heard the sound when i'm giving the kiss ... omg ! that time i really "gong" and her brother is beside of her ... the fact is she just playing me ... sweat ! around 4 only i went to bed ... kinda tired ... zzz

8 october 2009

i have no class today ... so i , roommate and classmate go to watch movie ... we planned to watch tsunami because a lot pf people said its nice ... around 2 o'clock then we meet at lrt ... after that we went to klcc and watch the movie ... when we reached TGv ... we were still considered which movie nicer ... after that we wanna watch a prefect gateway and tsunami ... but because of the time problem ... so we are abled to watch only one movie ... when our turn to buy the ticket ... i told the counter that i want to buy the tsunami tickets ... after that my classmate she "uh" at the moment ... then i changed to a prefect gatewy but at the same time she said tsunami ... the people was blur at the moment ... then i said tsunami ticket please ... after that we went for eating ... i ate the penang asam laksa ... its tasteless ... my gosh !!! actually the stalls have no customer but i still go through with it ... this is call as " find trouble with myself " ... zzz ... we just chit chat when we were eating ... and i only i know that johor bharu has no place to go too ... i think almost same as klang ... boring place ... zzz ... after that we were walking around the suria klcc and we played captured ... haha ... but only took a few of pictures because have no idea on posing ...

li yen and me ...

shil teng and me ...

i and pei ying ...

boring pose ... zzz

eating popcorn ... XD

winnie the pooh gangster ... XD

at 4.45pm ... we go to TGV and bought porconrn then we staright away go in but the people was not allowed us to go in because the time is still havent come yet ... then we played captured outside of the entry again ... haha ... when we saw a lot of people walked in then we also followed them ... when we walk into the cinema ... i saw the board showing the movie of " the moonlight ... dun know what what what " ... i keep told them we go watch this movie but its on november and the main characteristics is super handsome ... at the same time ... got one gang of girls also said he is handsome ... after that we go into the cinema ... this is the first time i went to movie but only a few of people ... because this movie its showing for a long period d ... so least people watch it by now ... the movie is quite bored man ... dont know why a lot of people said it was nice ... FAINT !!! just when the tsunami come along then only i feel it's more intersting for the movie ... otherwise i really gonna to fall asleep ... zzz ... but at the end was quite touch ... but my tears has no drop ... maybe i'm really callous ... after the movie ... we dont know where to go ... because klcc is really a bored place for student ... haha ... we just satnding there and watch the fountain ... a lot of people sitting down there and watch it ... but it just a simple fountain only ... zzz ... after a few minutes ... i asked them whether wanna go for dinner then they also agreed with me ... then we went to TBR for our dinner ... by the way going to TBR ... one of my classmate said she was gastric and she has to go back home first ... then we just continue our planning ... we ate the fried kuey teow in there ... a lot of people said its tastety but i only can taste the food is only the spicy ... my gosh !!! this is counted as delicious ? i have no comment at all ... zzz ... after we were reached room ... someone tell me a news ... thats a bad news for me ... really fucking off ... why this world got a human being being like this ? what the hell !!! FAKER !!! and last ... i wanna to say sorry to my roommate ... because i'm really moody and suddenly she scolded by me ... i'm so sorry girl ...

last day of my sem break

gambateh

after i woke up ... then i went for lunch with my brother and sister ... because it was 12pm ... we went for KFC ... yummy yummy !!! i didn't take it for a long period edy ... haha ... miss it !!! ...after that we went back to home then i just online ... pei ching told me 6 pm come to fetch me and go for bbq tonight ... but i waiting for her for an hour only they reaching my house ... GOSH !!! is too hungry while waiting for them ... then we went to ku ge ge shop because the bbq is still haven't done yet ... by the way , we have to wait once again ... zzz ... at 9 o'clock only we went for bbq ... the food was burnt-out ...anyway ... i still have to thank to them because they bbq for us and we just sitting there and enjoying our food while watching the final destination 4 ... we watched illegal DVD ... haha ... we took a lot of pictures after bbq ... haha ... after that pei ching have to back early ... because of something problem was suddenly pop out ... and i felt pei ching seem so angry and unhappy ... anyway ... wish her problems can settle down and forgot about unhappy things ... we should look forward ... and we shouldn't keep stare there and doing nothing ... our lives will go better ... gambateh pei ching !!! you can do it anyway ... today is my last day of my sem break ... actually is tomorrow ... because i have class on monday at 8 am ... so i have to back on tomorrow ... zzz ... today is my last day for enjoy my sem break ... feel so sad because i feel so bored when study time ... always doing the same things and some body said i'm living in jail ... sob sob ... my world gonna to be grey once again ... ARGGHHH !!! how could i colour my life on study time ? no idea ... anyone can help me ?

wat she trying to do ?

sharing one cup of pepsi ... hehe

sorority row

today just same as usual ... online and eating ... pui yee was cut off her hair ... she was became so mature man !!! but she looks gentle and not lala anymore ... haha ... she going to singapore one week later ... sob sob ... cause we cant meet for a long period ... but she said she will back here when her father go singapore ... the only thing i'm thinking that is you have to work at that time ... how are u able to back at the same time ??? sob sob ... then i went for sorority row at night ... actually it was 11.45 pm ... it counted as midnight movie right ??? yea ... i think so ... it is a horror and thriller movie ... but this was the first time i watched horror movie and i got shocked man ... omg !!! but it was a nice movie ... if u guys interesting then can go ahead to it ... really nice ... haha ... after the movie then we went for mamak for a while ... when i reached home around at 2.30 am ... stop here ... tatazzz

yesterday

bbq ~~

sweet memories ... hehe

ice skating ~~

me and siew wei ~~

star ~~

in lft ... hehe

I went to pyramid with siew wei and pui yee yesterday ... i felt very happy because we have a long period didnt go out together ... i think around half to 1 year like tat ... haha ... and we took a lot of pictures ... whenever where we go also we play captured ... haha ... we went for ice skating and bbq plaza ... but one thing was the sadness thing to siew wei yesterday ... and i also dun know hw to comfort her as well ... hope she can be fine and everything dun hurt her once again ... fxxk that guy ... like tat hurt ppl ... hnnngh !!!